If You Really Knew Me

If You Really Knew Me, you would know in high school i got picked on alot, i always walked down the falls looking striaght forward. Some of the players on the football team called me names. They would call me the devil, she-man, she-witch. They didn't know it was hurting me, cause i had a wall up and out came this bully that i was know for. Ever since i moved here when i was in third grade, I was always the one that got picked on. If you really knew me, you would know that my freshmen year of high school i got nomatied as a joke for my high school winter formal, and even though i won i heard that they were going to throw punch on me at the dance. i was excited that i won, but when i heard it was just a joke that nobody didnt like me. i felt sad, unhappy, and depressed but i never showed it. High school for me was hell, i couldnt wait til i got out and home, but sometimes school was the only place i could express my self. Because at home it was different in more ways then one. If you really knew me, you would know that my middle sister is smart, funny ,outgoing, athletic, and the perfect daughter in my family. In my family i don't fit in, i do alot of stupid things to get there attention, cause i feel like they always like my sister better then they do me. i sometimes feel like the black sheep cause most of my family doesnt understand me. My parents are always telling me " you should be more like your sister". They have been saying that to me for 8 years, the pain hurts so so bad. I dont want to be my sister, I just want to be me. If you really knew me, you would know that i just want to be except for just being and who i really am. You would know that I've been hurting for a long time, and i want the pain to stop, i want my parents to except me. I dont want to be in my sister's shadow no more. So please stop putting me there, i just want to be free. If you really knew me, thats what you would know.