A Long Day of pain

Today was my day off from work and i wanted to have fun and relax. and not to have a day of stress and sadness, cause the past couple of days ive been feeling stressed out and emotional mix feelings, it almost feels like im not human anymore, that i have turned into a whirlwind of  feeling alone and thinking u want to be happy, but once u get there, it fly's away or turns u down, should u take a leap of faith, take a chance at love. i dont know i want to be happy and be with a guy that would treat me like a princess. not talk down to me, yelling in my ear saying ur dumb, stupid ugly. it takes a toll on u physical and emotionaly. i'm not a sex symbol, im a fucking human being, i want to be treated with respect and not there sex slave. i want to be treated like a lady. are guys all the same treat women like a piece of meat and throw them out  when there down?